Lily Allen was suffering from a dark combination of postnatal depression and the various effects of serious substance abuse issues when Chris Martin and Gwyneth Paltrow invited her over for lunch and staged a small intervention a few years back. As she explains in her new memoir, “My Thoughts Exactly,” out this week, Lily had gotten wasted at a Halloween party hosted by Kate Hudson the night before the lunch. She accidentally head butted Orlando Bloom and managed to knock herself unconscious, prompting Chris to step in and drive her home. When he and his then-recent ex, Gwyneth, had her over to their home in Malibu, Lily writes the visit served as the “wake-up call” she needed to get some help. The singer’s book details a slew of equally disturbing incidents, as well as Lily’s struggle to overcome the effects of growing up with parents who often neglected her, the grief of losing her infant son, fears around the stalker who ultimately broke into her bedroom and planned to kill her before being apprehended by police and a record industry executive who said he could help with her addiction issues then got her drunk, set her up in his hotel room to “sleep it off” and proceeded to try to have sex with her while she slept. “I moved away as quickly as possible and jumped out of the bed, full of alarm … I found my clothes quickly … and ran out of his room and into my own,” she writes (via TheSun). Lily went to her lawyer and signed an affidavit detailing the experience but did not bring charges; she told The Guardian she wanted to name the man in the book but was blocked on the move by her publisher’s attorneys. “Nothing seemed to reach or satisfy me,” she writes of the period when she was heavily using alcohol, diet pills and cocaine. “I remember waking up one morning in those dark days thinking, ‘Maybe it’s time for heroin, because nothing else is working.'” She writes that instead, she hired a female escort whom she met with multiple times. “She was expensive. High-class hookers are. I didn’t care,” Lily recalls. “I just wanted her to help me feel something.” “My Thoughts Exactly” hits shelves on Friday, Sept. 21.
